I Need REAL Love

Thu, 10/19/2017 - 18:15 -- Female

I’m the spontaneous

COMBUSTION

Of a happy

But mad

 

Ugly but

Pretty

 

Stubborn

But cooperative

Little version of

 

YOU Daddy

 

You were the

Wind

Beneath my

Wings

    You were the

Up when i was

D

 O

  W

    N

 

You were my

Right

When I was

Left

 

You were 50%

Of the operation

 

That created this

Life

Behind these Words

 

But now we see differently

I’m no longer a seven year old

 

Let’s go to the dance daddy

Tuck me in and read me bedtime stories

Kiss my forehead

 

And tell me that you love me daddy

 

Wait

Why am I getting my ass whipped daddy? I thought you loved me

I didn’t do anything

Mama said that’s enough

I don’t quite know what you have me watching daddy but the girl and boy are naked and she seems like she’s in pain so why won’t he stop doing that?

And my 14 month old baby sister swallowed a penny while you were out smoking with your friends daddy You said you love her

I’m hungry and I need food daddy Love me and feed me

Your friend is just a little too close to me If you loved me you would do something

Daddy

But you said that’s uncle Gary and that he can touch me if he wants

And I trusted you

Because

You are

Daddy

 

Now I’m a seventeen year old

 

I know that I’m not yours Daddy

Tell me the truth

Get out of my face

I never want to see you again Daddy

  Why’d you make me another statistic Daddy

 

$14.92

Leaving my mother to raise me by herself

Wheres the money Daddy

Why don’t you call Daddy

I know that you hate me

 

You said you loved me Daddy

 

That I was “Daddy’s Little Girl”

But remember when you

Tried to rip my last name from between my teeth  Daddy

You said it’s not adoption if you were never my father in the first place

Love doesn’t make fathers say that to their children

 

Just because my face

Didn’t bruise

DOESN’T mean

You didn’t

Hit me

Daddy

Love doesn’t harm

 

I cried myself to sleep that night daddy

Tried to convince myself that you should have a presidential pardon from all of my values and ALL I could come up with was

Why the hell do I still believe in us. in the Hero image of my father bareback hard working man

 

But you know I finally realized

Daddy

That this “love”

Isn’t really love at all

 

That love is supposed to be a flowing waterfall so strong and beautiful that the world can’t seem to figure out what made it

Or why it exists

Love

Is

A bird soaring through the sky without knowing that it’s traveled past its destination

 

Love

Is

A wild flower eager to grow and show the eternity that in those few seconds of a bloom there’s a process creating life and peace

 

Everything you never gave

 

This poem is about: 
Me
My family

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