I need you here.

I'm giving up on happiness I'm giving up on life Things are not the same and things are going wrong I want you here by me holding me Reassuring me I want you telling me that everything will be ok and that things will get better. I want you to tell me that I'm beautiful and that you love me for who I am. I wish that you was still here and never passed away. You use to tell me that you will always be here for me but I see that isn't true anymore. You was the one that was always there for me, Now I have no one but the crazed mind of my own , The corrupted thoughts of my own And the indecisive ,unnatural behaviors that made me seem ... normal. But now that your not here with me I'm lost in the world that raised me from hell and somehow brought me to heaven. You left me in the world where people are to busy worried about how other people are living there lives than how they are living theirs. In a world were people judge my every move and every breath I take. You left me here to see that nobody will always hold my hand. Left me to see that the unbearable and undesirable pain I go through is just a step backwards from the four steps forward that I made. You are showing me that I am strong and I am beautiful. You let me see that when people tear me down I'm strong enough to build myself back up Like building blocks of life. You showed me that smiling hides the pain, That crying is ok and that laughing until my stomach hurts is something to cry for. But then again I still wish that you was here.