I realized whenever i was

I realized whenever i was stuck something happened so that it moved me 

which happened around the same time that right after i found myself i'd lose me 

and then all my emotions get bottled up until i pour then down on looseleaf

and i talk about how everytime i win im losing

and then it gets all grey and dark

and i talk about how no matter how i try to i just cant play my part 

which forced her to end everything before it could even start.

and its my fault cause im the one, im the one shes regretting 

she says i never help her i cant , i cant cause she wont let me 

and i wrote this story without thinking about the ending