I Regret Laughing

I regret laughing,

Laughing when Haley told me he liked me.

Freshman year I had a chance to get what I wanted,

A boyfriend,

but that was ruined because I laughed.

Before I moved I was the butt of everyone’s jokes,

anyone liking me was a rarity

so much so thinking about the possibility

made me laugh in her face.

If I didn’t laugh maybe I’d be different,

maybe my high school experience would change,

maybe I never would have joined that club

that made me realize what I loved

so in a way I guess I’m glad I laughed,

but I still wonder what would happen if I didn’t.