I Remember....

I remember the day I first laid my eyes on you,

it was the feeling of pure bliss. 

I remember how I used to stare from a distance,

hoping you'd notice. 

I remember the first time in knew your eyes belonged to me,

and the feeling of your soft but loving kiss. 

I remember how my heart craved you,

and how I’d always had your focus. 

I remember all the late night talks,

the laughing, the crying, the silence.

I remember the all pinky promises,

"I'm not going anywhere baby girl... "

I remember how I learned every promise you made,

was empty.

I remember how hard my heart shattered, 

when I knew your eyes weren't mine.

I remember how I'd cry myself to sleep,

wondering what I had done wrong.

I remember wanting you to call again, 

and take up some of my time. 

I remember wanting to see that beautiful smile,

wishing I could hear you sing our song.

I remember how angry I was with you,

because I still loved you. 

I remember how I knew your heart was long gone,

And I was standing with the shadow of you.

I remember how I wrote a note saying goodbye, 

to all the pain.

I remember watching my life play out in my head,

and I was ready to click the off switch. 

I remember feeling cold and suddenly was warm,

and this indescribable joy came. 

I remember picking myself up, 

and no longer allowing myself to sink into that ditch.

I remember feeling like I'd lost the greatest love I've ever known, 

but I know now that the greatest love out there for me.

Is my own.