I remember November 9, 2013

I remember thinking it wasn’t real

I remember hoping it was a big lie

I remember not being able to keep my food down, crying all night… insomnia

Last Christmas was filled with sorrow, I felt empty…

                       … It was my first Christmas without him…

Reminiscing Christmas 2012

Sergio was my happiness, he helped me forget about my problems, he helped me get over my self harm and my self-esteem issues

I remember thinking why couldn’t I have helped him, why didn’t he tell me?

… maybe I could have saved

him…