I saw a noose

I saw a noose in your room

and I wanted to cry.

You untied it to tie me up

I wanted to lose control again but this time

I wouldn't have to make the next decision.

I wouldn't have to fix anything, there were no consequences. 

because you were in control

you could make the next move for me.

but as I was losing control I was worried about you.

The picture of the noose couldn't leave my brain.

I pictured you losing control in a 

different way, one night alone by yourself.

I wanted to tie you up, I wanted to take control

not of your body but of your mind.

I wanted to make your decisions for you.

I wanted to make your next move.

But I was tied up,

I couldn't move

I couldn't help you