I See You When I Look Out My Window
it takes just a second of familiarity
a line in a song, your scent on my sheets, the view from my back window
to get you back in my head
and the pain of bearing these memories
is crippling
your presence is toxic to me
I can’t get you out of my bloodstream
no matter how many times I tear myself open
the dreams that you planted in me are now malignant
metastasising as disappointment
you were the greatest source of happiness and beauty in my life
but you must have been lying when you said the same to me
you’ve fucked me in every sense of the word
for you to get out of my life
is entirely too impossible, we know