I Should/Shouldn't have Danced

I remember days

When i should have danced,

Even if i wasn’t good enough,

Even if i felt i wasn't enough.

The days

When i should have danced:

The first day: When i saw your eyes alone in the rain.

The second day: When i was under the party lights in 7th grade

you begged me but i sat in the corner

The last day: When i was with my family in the living room

broken soon after.

I felt the music too late.

I remember days

When i shouldn’t have danced,

Even if i believed the lies,

Even if i felt it wasn’t a lie.

The days

When i shouldn’t have danced:

The first day: When i was alone with that boy in my room.

The second day: When i was under the party lights in another state

I gave into lust too soon

The last day: today, when i was alone in my room

Sometimes i dance away my tears, but i spilled my coffee on accident.

I felt the music too soon.