I sit and wonder

I sit and wonder how my life should be 

Hoping all the dreams would really come into reality , I sit and wonder why I'm not there yet , I know it's not on my time it's gods timing . 

I sit and wonder how should I react to this life I'm living

Life come with struggle and without struggle there is no progress . 

I sit and wonder , why my life been screwed up since the age of 5 .. 

No female role model can really mess up a girls head ... How should I walk through life , how should I stand on my own two feet , how do I fight my own battles mentally and not physically . 

I sit and wonder will things ever get better , I look up to the sky a say "I know it will , why ? Because your always walking with me god" . He has never let me down . I sit and wonder why no one else felt the same pain I felt that was raised in a single parent home , or why couldn't they understand . The pain will always be there for not having a mother , but I am growing to get over it , and understand it 

I sit and wonder and I finally say things will get better baby girl day by day as you wake up and start your day , look for a new beginning . as you look forward nothing behind you would matter any more . 

I sit and wonder the dreams will no longer be a fantasy I turn it into a reality 

I sit and wonder .......