I stand sleeping

I stand sleeping crushed in the softness of my bed, dark, bottomless, heavy. i stand sleeping My tube lubed my head pounded, active, silent. I lie sleeping awake, lost nigh and day. No end no beginning, I stand dreaming. Excuses are worth living Without them what would we live for? Sighs and gasps of air show how scared of life we can be both as love and enemy Dog tired, what the fuck does that mean? licked lapped loved into sickness Why do I do this? I stand sleeping, dreaming, silent, motionless, scared. The roar, clanking, rhythm of metal cold, remorseless, bombards my haze awakens me, oxidizes me, A reaction unstoppable til balance reached and night and day become one. one life, one soul, one mind. Silence of a life unsound. I stand.