I Still Remember

I remember the way you’d caress my curves The way you’d make me crave your tender touch You had this way of getting on my nerves But then you’d make me want you so much And the way you’d kiss my lips — The way you’d kiss my lips squeeze my thighs Then grab my hips Your body sent me on a natural high You had me mesmerized Almost like I’ve been hypnotized But I’m too dignified for me to be criticized Because I almost feel victimized The way you made my legs feel liquefied you’d hit my spot, then had my eyes rolling. They were too busy to see through your disguise because just one look . . . one look had me paralyzed See when i met you I was half innocent but only because I was hella bent That party we went to was hella litt and because I can’t get back all the time that was spent I resulted to using some social lubricants Damn, If only I wasn't so ignorant I woulda saw right through your arrogance but back then, Baby back then that was all irrelevant You sold me an American Dream You made me believe I’d be your Queen “One day we’ll be married” That’s what you told me See back then I was a fool But now I KNOW I was lied to “We’ll have a white picket fence with a pool out back— And we can spoil our kids and give them all that WE lacked” I mean, it sounded good but when you're young and naive like me You’ll fall for whoever makes you feel good even if you know you shouldn't believe had my dumb ass thinking we were living in a movie You used me like I was just some sort of groupie had me blinded because you're such a cutie and I failed to realize MY inner beauty I damn near forgot my self worth Something my mom instilled in me from birth had me thinking loving you was a curse when deep inside I only FELT the reverse so now I have to pour my heart into this verse knowing damn well this shit only makes me feel worse Because your game was tight it all sounded like what you need to hear when you tryna get YOURSELF right You don't know how many times I cried at night praying to God, he’d let me win this fight because what’s done in the dark always comes to light But Now, now I thank him for the blessing he showed me some boys are just supposed to be lessons and though you took from me what can’t be returned I have to say you were a lesson learned See, now that I know what I’m worthy of I’ll wait for a man who gives me what I deserve someone who will accept all my crazy and treat me like a lady cause no strong black woman wants a nigga thats lazy Someone who will place me on a pedestal Someone who’s gentle and respectable Someone who will be so unforgettable Someone so impeccable he’ll keep me feeling incredible But until he comes, I’ll wait I’ll leave it all in the hands of Fate