I Like to Think

I like to think I’m invincible

Like nothing ever hurts me.

I like to think I’m strong enough

So no one will desert me.

I like to think I know what’s wrong

Especially what’s wrong with me.

What’s wrong with me?

Why can’t I see?

Why can’t I breathe

So suddenly?

I like to think I can’t be selfish.

I like to think I’m always selfless,

When on second thought

I know that I’m not

And I know I’ll get caught

In my hypocrisy.

I like to think that I can’t be wrong.

I like to think that I’m always right.

I like to think that everyone likes me,

When I know that’s a lie

That I tell myself,

That might help my self esteem.

I just wanna scream.

I like to think that I don’t have to cry,

When I know that I do

Cuz I bottle up my emotions

As I go through all the motions

Of everyday life

Filled with nothing but strife.

I like to think I control myself,

But I know that it takes a toll on my health,

My mental health

Is going through hell

Like I’m locked in a cell.

I like to think that my thoughts are my own,

When I get in a zone

Where I’m sad and alone.

I like to think that I like to think

But I don’t like to think at all.