I Think Not

  (I think not)

                                                     I am from a mind

Filled with terrible thoughts,

I try to replace them with happy memories,

And my mind says,

“I think not.”

                                                          I am from a mind,

That says “you’re fat,”

“You’re ugly,”

“You’re not worth it,”

People tell me

“You’re beautiful,”

“You’re smart,”

I try to believe them

But my mind says,

“I think not.”

                                                          I am from a mind

That loses my train of thought,

By the beat of music

It's the sound of joy during hard times,

Sunshine on a rainy day

Those few minutes of drowning

Out the voices in my mind

But they come back,

My mind saying,

“I think not.”

                                                           I am from a mind

That fills my head with

Bad dreams,

No sleep

And night terrors,

I would wake up

Screaming and crying

Telling my mind to stop.

But my mind has a

Mind of its own,

And would say,

“I think not.”

                                                           I am from a mind

I wish i could control,

Take power over,

Get rid of these nasty thoughts,

But my mind says,

“I think not.”

I am from a mind

That produces tears

That i try to fight back .

But my mind

With a mind of its own

Says,

“I think not.”

                                                            I am from a mind

That will be over run,

That will be taken over,

By happy thoughts ,

And smiles.

I’m going to take charge

of my own thoughts.

When my mind tries to take over,

When my mind tries to create flashbacks,

When my mind says,

‘You don’t control your thoughts, I do.”

I’m going to face my fears and say

“I think not.”