I Think Of You

When the world gets hard and no one is around

I think of you.

A silent whisper in my ear.

When the stars in the sky lights up

I think of you.

A star looking down at me.

When I look at flames dancing carelessly

I think of you.

Twisting among them and smirking.

When I look at the sky

I think of you.

An angel floating on the cloud.

When I burn old letters

I think of you.

The ghost haunting me as they burn.

When I burn those pictures into my mind

I think of you.

The only person in them that mattered

When I let my mind wonder

I think of you.

A smiling child who knew so little.

When I let myself remember

I think of you.

The tears and all.

When they bring up those stories

I think of you.

Knowing you would hate the sadness in my eyes.

When they pull out old picture

I think of you.

The one I wish was still here.

When it gets dark in my heart

I think of you.

And the pain tears at me.

When it gets difficult to act

I think of you.

Because with you I never had to be okay.

When I can't write

I think of you.

And find the words I needed

When I can't focus

I think of you.

Daydreams hold me tight.

When I think of you I'm sad.

Because you are gone.

When I think of you I'm mad.

Because you left me alone.

When I think of you I'm happy.

Because we were a hell of a pair.

When I think of you I get sappy.

Because I miss you and want to hold who I still have.

When I think of you I forget.

Because I don't want it to hurt me when I'm with you.

When I think of you I regret.

Because there were words I should have said.

When I think of you I hate.

The drunk who stole you from me.

When I think of you it's great.

Because I need someone to hold.

When I think of you I believe.

In ghost and angels.

When I think of you I deceive.

Because they don't need to see me bleed.

When I think of you I cry.

Because I let you go.

When I think of you I lie.

Because I don't have to share you.

I feel that you should honestly know.

I feel that before I go.

I feel that before I walk away.

I feel that I should say.

I feel the heart break.

I feel that there was so much at stake.

I feel that you should know.

I feel before I go.

I feel you should know the truth.

I feel I should know the truth.

I feel so many things.

I feel like I'm stuck inside of tight rings.

I feel that I have to let you go.

I feel that this you should know.

I think of you all the time.

And every time I love you more.

I know I should let you go.

But without you it would be harder.

I know I shouldn't love you.

I do it anyway.

I know these thoughts are pointless.

I know it's a waste of time.

I also know you're always on my mind.

I need you more then I'll ever say

I can't just throw your memory out the door.

I love you with all my heart.

I swear this to you.

My darling angel.

My sweetest ghost.

Micheal I promise.