I thought

I can only see my shadow when the sun rises. 

I can only breathe when your heads above water.

I am only whole when someone becomes your other half.

I am only broken when I whisper “ Im fine”

I am only frantic when the people who I hold close cause me to have to let go.

I am only happy when the darkness fades and the light shines through

I see the fog of my doubts more often than I see the joy of the rain.

I see myself in a distraught position and keep smiling anyway.

But things are changing lately. 

Others are beginning to see me...to know me ...and I am afraid.

I thought only I notice the tear stained cheeks I have.

I thought only I could be the one who understands me. 

I don't bathe in the divine waters and roses.

I don't sing praises to the ones who don't deserve it.

I don't let the fog I call lies blind me from the truth.

But you?.....you have yet to give up on me.

I thought I was the only one allowed to do that.