I thought I knew

I thought I knew

I thought I was safe

I thought my examples demonstrated my future

My house radiates romance and love

My parents

hardworking soul mates

My first love became a lesson

The hardest lesson

Even though all I asked for was love

Pictures now bring pain

Fists of false love damage my confidence

I thought I knew

I excused the constant feeling of not being enough

I hid my lack of trust

My gut kept telling me

My heart refused to listen

From the outside it was clear

But feelings were blinding

Time always tells

But I wish time had not been wasted

Because I believed the empty I love you

And now my first love becomes regret

I thought I knew

But now I do

Because love is faithful

Love is hard

But love holds no demands

Love holds no fists

No demands

And feels no regrets

Love is hard

But loving should not be a lesson

Disguised as “you’re not good enough”

I thought I knew

I thought I was safe

I thought unhealthy was never me

But it was

And now I know

Love communicates

And is honest

Love is never pinocchio

And plays no hide-and-seek

Being loved is never trial-and-error

I love you

Is never an excuse

You deserve it

And so do I