I Told Myself

I told myself that you were my happiness,

I even told myself that you were my dream

I told myself to trust you, 

I even told myself that it was okay 

I told myself that it was just one argument, 

I even told myself that it'll get better 

I told myself to stop crying, 

I even told myself to fake a smile

I told myself to forgive you, 

I even told myself to leave 

I told myself that this was toxic,

I even told myself that I deserved better

I told myself that I needed you ,

I even told myself that I'm independent 

Then I told myself that I am strong, 

and that I will be okay 

I started to tell myself that being single isn't scary, and that I'll find someone who'll treat me better 

So I told myself that I was going to leave and I told myself that I am worthy. 

I left that same day. 

I left the same day, that I told myself