I tried

Only I knew, that I prevoked this  /  Theres no closure nor a farewell kiss  /  I had looked in to your worried eyes  /  Such an enchanting shade of blue  /  I decided against the easier lies  /  I whispered I couldn't ever love you  /  I never forgave myself though I tried  /  Please don't think the guilt doesn't kill  /  The soft silence is screaming still  /  It had been the eleventh of Febuary  /  I choked on you name in the obituary  /  I apologize for every time that I lied  /   And that I didn't visit after you died  /  Angel I'm so sorry I couldn't love you   /  But I'm more sorry I tried.