I used to
i use to think suicidal thoughts was so lame
until one day I wish I had a gun to my brain
or to be hanging from a chain
shit maybe drown like that game heavy rain
needless to say I was scared to take my own life
a bitch scared to carve into my skin with a knife
but the dark mind hits and it hits deep
Kyle you can't do this or that just sleep
Kyle your a man u better not wheep
Kyle you a child of God one of his sheep
but .. what if I wasn't meant for keep
is it selfish to contemplating a leap
I use to want to slit my wrist
paint carpet in blood like artist
but I was never ready for that risk
by no means do I want to live
but by no means did I want to leave
I do know it's ok to be sad
shit it's fine to be mad
I use to think dying was my purpose
but now my will to live has surfaced