i walked into the room

i walked into the room feeling my heart beat through my chest i held my metal bat with the tightest grip Tears were running like faucet water down my cheeks Every tear scorched and every step i took to the closed door my heart beated more drastically "god forgive me for i am going to sin" i said with my head bent my momma raised me better than this Chasing men that aint "IT" i just feel like why me the test results came back the day after he propsed to me on ONE knee but i come today to find i have HIV Determinately i came to open our bedroom door He was home from work sleep soar Bolting to him with the bat i grieved quietly I was standing over my fiance who knew it would come to this day I loved him but ive went mad and it was sad see ive come to realize as im slaughtering my husband with every swing that i shouldnt of rested till me and my husband got tested