i wanna experience death

i wanna experience death.

i wanna feel a pain so strong it’s numbing,

i wanna look up at the sky and be greeted by

another world,

a better world.

i wanna experience death.

i wanna feel a cold hand squeeze my heart,

i wanna have the world stop for a while as

everything goes quiet and dim…

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i wanna experience death.

i wanna feel my heart race down,

to barely a beat,

bump.. Bum-bump…

i wanna then slowly shut my eyes as i take my last shuddering breath.

i wanna experience death.

i wanna know what happens next,

wanna be embraced by a better place,

leave the taunting voices behind,

as i whisper goodbye.

i wanna experience death...

but i wanna live to feel it.