i want

i want to tear off my skin

let the flesh rip from my bones

i want to sew my eyelids shut

i dont want to see anymore.

i want to sever my fingers

let them dangle by a thread

i want to put a bullet in my head

i dont want to feel anymore.

i want to pull out my spine

let my body go limp

i want to inject myself with pentobarbital

i dont want to be alive anymore.

i dont want to deal with this anymore