I want no more pain

I want to feel something 

Not just the blade upon my arm

I want to love someone 

That won’t do me any harm

I don't want to cry anymore 

I want more than just my blood on the floor

I want to know more

Than just my tears

I want to reach for something

Not just run from my fears

I want to feel like I’m enough

Am I enough?

I want to enjoy life with no strings attached

I don't want to dread being attacked

I don't want to feel alone anymore

I want to know what I’m living for

I want to end it all

But I’m still scared to fall

I don't want anymore scars

I’m not asking for the stars

I want to be worth anything

I want death to stop calling

I want to be loved 

I want to rise above 

This pain

I want the lies to stop replaying 

I want to stop cutting

I don't want to find myself in the mirror 

I want the truth to become clearer

I want to eat and not force myself to throw up

I don't want to grow up 

I want to stop skipping meals 

I never want anyone to know how it feels

I want him to come back

I want him to leave

I want to be on track

I want to believe

There is anything good about me

I want to stop feeling this self pity

But I’m done

I want to run

Am I good enough?

Am I worthy?

No