I wanted to grow up

I wanted to grow up.

When I grow up I wanna be like my grandma.

When I saw her prepare all the corn and raspado to go sell the next day in the streets of California.

I deliberately waited to grow up and be like her .

A strong woman of faith and integrity.

As time passed, my brother got in trouble with the law.

 I wanted to grow up and become a lawyer.

 To help those that have to navigate the legal system.

As an adult I see all the strength and love my mother has.

I wanted to grow up and be like her 

Being a grown up I have to get a job.

Being a grown up I have to go get an education.

Being a grown up I have to become stronger and take every day as it comes.

Being a grown up I have deadlines.

Being a grown up is having a heart of a child.

Being a grown up  is keeping the memories.

Being a grown up is remembering what I wanted to be.  

Being a grown up is having dreams and making it a reality.