I Wanted To Tell Her I Was Sorry

I wanted to write her an apology

But I just couldn’t find the words

My voice had been stolen

And just like Ariel in the little mermaid, I couldn’t speak

I wanted to tell her that I was sorry

Because no one knew how dark her nights had become but I knew her

I knew that she pulled at her hair

The same way she tugged at her stitches screaming

She wasn’t ready to heal,

And like a band aid covering a wound that still gets infected

Her heart couldn’t remain protected

And I wanted to tell her that I was sorry

Because no one knew the depths of her mind were like

An ocean she often fell into and drowned,

But I knew her

I knew that she wished for her childhood

Of jumping rope and climbing trees

And I knew that now she jumps rope over the parts of herself

She doesn’t want to deal with,

Thinking the slightest trip over the rope would break her

And I wanted to tell her I was sorry

Because no one knew that like that tree her branches were

Always covered in leaves so no one could see what she carved

Into her skins bark,

But I knew her

I knew the way she thought of everyone else before herself

And the way she loved the seasons changes because she knew

Beauty even though she couldn’t see it in herself

The way she watched the ground catch the falling leaves

And wished someone would do the same for her

I knew the way she loved till it hurt and the way

She hurts because she loves

And I wanted to tell her I was sorry

Because she was the most amazing person I have ever met

And I was sorry she didn’t see that.