I Watched a Boy Grow

I watched a boy grow

smart and sweet

how was I to know

my heart would shatter at my feet?

a few times we danced

our eyes never meeting

too nervous to get the chance

to tell you, the moment fleeting

in my journal I write

'I love you' a thousand times

but I did not put up a fight

when others could see what I saw in you sometimes

I gave meaningful gifts

but you never saw my simple actions

your view of me shifts

I watched a boy realize he had better options

as my heart fell, it splintered

I watched the jagged points hit the ground

only to find them cutting my skin, leaving me withered

from then on I wasn't around

tensely, I sit in a soft chair

choking, my throat dry as I tell my story

she listens, leaving me feeling bare

I wonder, does she feel bad for me?

a year later

I can sit next to you and actually breathe

I don't hate her

but I can't believe you like a tease

from honest and kind

to immature low

I lost my mind

I watched a boy grow