I Will Not Fall Victim

I used to think about that day all of the time No one knew but us three I was so young they thought I would not remember But I do They had the covers laid out They knew their plans Being touched by cold hands And cold hearts They had their way With no resistance from me They believed she'd be okay This won't be on her mind everyday This won't affect her future This won't make her think it is her fault This won't confuse her They justified the act She never said NO She never told anyone Not once was there an objection She must have wanted it They were wrong It still affects every action I make Everyone that wants to care will be pushed away Because of my fear They breached my trust Never would I conform to another adult I will never give someone the satisfaction of no disagreement I will contest everything that comes my way Never will someone else have control over me Everyone of my actions from then on would be my choice I would have control over all things I was involved in There wasn't anyone there for me then So I don't need anyone now No love from me Because no love was found All of the hurt I felt made me strong Strong in the head And guarded at the heart This wall of steel won't break apart Then I decided one day my future was mine If I really wanted to reach in life my goals I had to go make them happen With or without anyone My experience will not dictate my life I will stand for me I will make it I will do everything I can to be me I will not fall victim to my experience