I Will Not Fall Victim
Location
I used to think about that day all of the time
No one knew but us three
I was so young they thought I would not remember
But I do
They had the covers laid out
They knew their plans
Being touched by cold hands
And cold hearts
They had their way
With no resistance from me
They believed she'd be okay
This won't be on her mind everyday
This won't affect her future
This won't make her think it is her fault
This won't confuse her
They justified the act
She never said NO
She never told anyone
Not once was there an objection
She must have wanted it
They were wrong
It still affects every action I make
Everyone that wants to care will be pushed away
Because of my fear
They breached my trust
Never would I conform to another adult
I will never give someone the satisfaction of no disagreement
I will contest everything that comes my way
Never will someone else have control over me
Everyone of my actions from then on would be my choice
I would have control over all things I was involved in
There wasn't anyone there for me then
So I don't need anyone now
No love from me
Because no love was found
All of the hurt I felt made me strong
Strong in the head
And guarded at the heart
This wall of steel won't break apart
Then I decided one day my future was mine
If I really wanted to reach in life my goals
I had to go make them happen
With or without anyone
My experience will not dictate my life
I will stand for me
I will make it
I will do everything I can to be me
I will not fall victim to my experience