I wish I never lost you

I can't believe it you are gone !  I had you for 15 years then I met him! I thought he was the one! I knew I was young, but I found out late that I was dumb! I just fell in love with him! I was in too deep! When he kissed me in touched me I wanted to believe that he cared, that it was meaningful to him! And when he asked i didn't say no! "How stupid!" is what I tell myself now because now he seems like he does not care! I should have listened to what others said maybe I would not be in this horrible predicament!  I feel like another girl on his list, that he jus "checked" off! I lost YOU to HIM!  And I HATE myself for that! I wish I could take it bak...but sadly I cannot!  You are M.I.A and I am sad, angry and lost... I wish I could take it back!  I wish I never met him! I WISH I NEVER LOST YOU!  I WANT YOU BACK!