I wish I was good at math

I wish I was good at math I wish I could succeed I wish I could be the person That you've always wanted to see me be I wish I could prove to you That I have what it takes But proof is as real As a smile on my face I wish I had the grades That could make you proud of me I wish I could pay for college And chase after all my dreams I wish you didn't have to worry About me failing at life But most of all I wish That you believed that I'm right I wish I was good at math, So I could solve this problem I wish I was good with equations So this wouldn't seem like so much to swallow I wish I could give you a brighter hope A better gamble with your money But the payoff could be good I'm not wanting you to gamble your future I wish it didn't come down to that I wish I was in control of my future Because then I wouldn't be stuck on this path I've made bad decisions But those decisions made me who I am I'm stubborn, mean, and cruel sometimes But I'm still the only girl you have And trust me, I'm willing I'm doing a better job. I'm going to be great someday Whether you help me or not I see myself with a calling Somewhere better than here But I can't stop the crying That keeps me holding onto this fear I wish that you'd believe in me And give me a chance Haven't I proved you wrong in the past? When I want something, I go for it When I don't, I let it slip by But I want my career, mom I want to be an adult Not a freeloader child I'm ready to grow up now You cant clip my wings You may control my future But you don't control my wings I wish I was good at chemistry So I could apply math to my life Make me a better person So I don't feel tempted to give up the fight I wish I was better, But I know I will be better And what is better? What is normal? What is achievement? It's irrelevant. I'm not I'm a person Not a gamble I'm a person Not a risk Im a person Who wishes They were good at math