I wonder...

I wonder how much longer I can keep going like this
How much longer can I keep lying to myself
And to those around me
20kgs have gone
Do you not wonder how I've done it?
I've told you I once had a problem in the past
Somehow you didn't seem surprized by that
I guess you see more then you let on

I wonder how much longer I can keep going like this
I can't seem to sleep anymore
And I feel sick all the time
The shakes never go away
I'm always so very tired

Please hear what I'm not saying