I would love me

I want to kill myself when there’s no hope that things will change.

Nobody will let me forget how I look.

I don’t care how I look, so why the hell should everybody else?

If I was somebody else, somebody better looking, at least average looking,

People would just leave me alone

They wouldn’t scream in terror when they saw me,

Kids wouldn’t point and stare and cry at me

Assholes at my school wouldn’t yell at me and tease me and bully me

I would have the courage to ask for help, to talk, to open my mouth

without having the anxiety that I would be rejected

I would look people in the face instead of down at my feet,

I would look in the mirror and say

“hey good looking, what’s cooking”

I could go anywhere and do anything

Because nobody would be afraid of me

Nobody would feel like they absolutely need to comment, bully,

Or draw anymore unwanted attention to my face

This happens every single day

If I was better looking, this wouldn’t be happening to me

If I was better looking people would want to be my friend

If I was better looking people wouldn’t treat me like crap

If I was better looking I could be whoever I want to be

If I was better looking, I wouldn’t have to kill myself

If I was better looking I would love me

If I was better looking I could just be me

Instead what other people want me to be

Instead of what other people fear me to be

Instead of what other people make me