I write to feel happy

Maybe falling in love at a young age isn't so great. People make it seem like it's the best thing ever because falling in love with a person you've known in school or since you were just little kids is perfect and a great story to tell, most people want it to be like that, but when it gets to the point where it may or may not be over, or you get to a point where you know for sure you're in love but you aren't sure how the other person feels, it seems like life is over. What's the point in living when you can't live with the person you imagined you'd be with until the good god is ready for you to come home? Love is wonderful, but it's also strange. The reason I write is because I don't have anybody I trust enough to tell my secrets and problems to. It's good to get your troubles out instead of hold whatever monster there is inside in. If I did hold it in I'd be the one turning into the ugliness that's within me. The only thing I trust enough to keep my thoughts is my notepad. I'm a very curious person with many strange ideas, and a person like me loves to talk and be able to express the way I feel and the things I think, whether it's good or bad. I'd like to express myself to the world, but in most cases I'd like for my thoughts to be kept between me and loyal hearts, but being a seventeen year old that feels alone in a world full of life, I have no one to call a loyal friend. I write because it's no fun to sit and cry alone. I write because it hurts to think about loving someone who probably doesn't love you anymore. I write because I know no matter how much I tell my notepad how I feel, I'm not getting a response and I never will.