I'd Do It All Again

It feels like I’ve never been alone before.

Obviously I have, but that was so many years ago.

I grew comfortable, you were a huge part of my life.

Although, you were the part of my life that held me back.

I never had any room to grow, I was trapped.

It got to the point where you were all I had,

You were my only source of happiness.

We never focused on ourselves,

We focused more on who were were together.

I always thought during the time I was learning about myself,

But, I was just becoming another version of you.

And it is so hard to talk about those years because:

You were those years.

You were every memory,

You were everything to me,

And that was the problem.

I just want to say I’m sorry, I never meant to hurt you.

I still look back at all the memories we’ve shared,

And trust me, my heart still aches.

But since then I’ve learned more about myself than ever.

I found an amazing group of friends who care about me,

I’m comfortable with my body and who I am as a person,

And I’m excelling in my classes for school like never before.

I finally found some self-happiness in my life.

And no matter how much I loved you,

I’d do it all again.