If I could

If I could I would 

It would start with denial.

I would say you aren't the fire that burns in me. 

You don't make my heart lurch forward 

Like when you hit the brakes too hard. 

If I could I would 

Explain why falling scares me. 

I could tease you, laugh with you 

I could do anything. 

But you are you

And I am just me. 

I know I'm smart, and dorky. 

You are the same, but you're quiet. 

I'm loud and excited. 

I can begin now. 

Your light burns so hot and bright. 

Your laugh echos in my heart

Skip another thump. 

Your voice sings in my mind, 

I could close my eyes and listen to you talk all day. 

If I could begin I would

It would start with denial.