If I Ever...

If I ever needed advice it would probably be now I want to let so much out but I don't know how, I am forced to keep it all inside because my feelings are something I can nt express, I am trying to keep it all clean but my heart ace is making a mess, never have I ever felt so much anger before day after day I am madder than I was before, there is really no one to blame but myself but yet I can not own up to my mistakes so I blame everyone else I hide who I am; my thoughts, ,y feelings and my emotions included when i'm asked what's wrong I tell everything but I leave my true feeling excluded. the sudden irritation, the frequent contemplation, and all along i'm going after something but i'm losing sight of what i'm chasing I feel so muvh at once, so much anger in store. and the only satisfaction I get is seeing someone else suffer, but even then I want more.