If I Live

No one gives a damn if I shake till I fall down

No one cares if I'm sobbing on the ground

Face buried in a pile of dirt

So damn sad I can't say a word

No one would look if I cut my skin

I'm either sad or sadder, I just can't win 

Everyone would turn their heads if I bled to death

After I make the final cut, it becomes a regret

If I bleed out, what would be the consequence?

I've been lying here and it makes so little sense

You want me to live, yet you don't care if I die

You want me to be happy, yet you don't care if I cry

It's so ironic, the wat life works

You work your ass off and receive none of life's perks

While those who take the easy way

Get all they ever wanted without having to pay 

You say I'm sick, that I need help

But none of the meds will ever make me well

Tell me to find ways to distract myself 

Put these harmful emotions up on a shelf

But nothing can change how I feel

I could have it all and still think it's unreal

But enough about me, let's talk about you

After all, I don't have a future. But you do

You easily follow orders. Told to be happy, you obey

When someone insults you, you know what to say 

You are a strong person, you need no aid

Although at times you bend, you will never break

But I am weak, I am far from strong

This world makes me feel so wrong

I can never do things right, I'm always at fault

At times I wish I could fling myself off a catapault

I wish I'd die so I wouldn'r be so sad

I wish I were fone so I wouldn't feel this bad

But I can't do that, or I'll be labeled insane

So please, tell me, if I live, what's there to gain?