If I said Goodbye

If I gave up and said goodbye

It's because I lost the ability to cry

This pain I've felt I never knew why

I just couldn't keep up with the lie

Never would've predictated that I'd be in this position

A postion no one notices with out obvious recgontion

Of course I wouldn't want people to see

This empty shell I've come to be

I'm a fraction of what I knew as me

Despair and solitude are my eternity

Unless I can fianlly surpass

The depression that has learned to last

I've always been able to hide

Hide this pain I bury inside

Trying so hard to hide what I don't want them to find

And they'll never find if I said good bye

Goodbye to the poeple I love the most

Goodbye to the illness that made me a host

Goodbye to the family that never came to be

Goodbye to the person I once knew as me