If I Stay

It’s not like I tried to hurt you 

Like I took the opportunity to see you cry 

The last thing I wanted was tears to fill the blue 

Space around your pupils 

It's not like I was trying to do this 

Like I was trying to make a mess 

Like I wanted things to fall apart 

Like I wanted to break your heart 

If I had known I would have stayed away 

I would have walked away, kept my demons at bay 

I would have done my best to let you go 

I would have done what I could to let you know 

That I wasn’t who you thought 

That I had a lot of demons that couldn’t be fought 

That you couldn’t fix me or make me good 

But you would still stay, I know you would 

So it’s better now, if I walk away 

Because I’ll only hurt you more, if I stay