if only descriptions were suffcient

At sixteen, i am

still

unaware of the words 

i can and cannot say.

i know words hurt

believe me

but now

every word

                    phrase

                                 sentence

blends together.

how am i supposed to

tell someone

how i feell

without everything

b

   r

     e

         a

             k

                 i

                    n

                         g?

how am i 

to tell someone

my most horrid

and ugly truths

without fear of 

abandonment?

how am i 

to tell a 

work of art

that catharsis

has taken over

but

that i still want

all that i have thought about

with them?

how am i 

to tell a 

precious sould

that i want

to end my life?

there are no words

for any feeling

      any craving

      any thirst

i feel.