If you only knew.

When I first met you I never thought I would have these feelings for you, I remember looking at you from across the room, You looked so innocent, You just stood back, Like you were standing in your friends shadows, You didn't need all the attention, But you were still the only one I could focus on, I remember just thinking to myself, What could I do to impress someone like you, I didn't know if I should talk, Or if I should lay back in the shadows too, I wanted to understand you, And from that night I knew, You would be my challenge, I would try everything I could just to know you, I remember the first night, I never wanted to leave, I knew if I left it was like admitting to myself it wasn't real, I wanted to stay with you, I wanted you to notice me, I wanted you to want me like I wanted you so bad, You drove me crazy from the start, I remember standing in Walmart getting our blankets, All I could think was, How does he look at me? Am I just imagining him being this perfect, I wanted to go home and get ready for hours, I just wanted to impress you, As time went on I realized you were different, I knew just one look from you gave me the most butterflies I've ever had, I don't open up to many people, But I remember thinking to myself, I needed to open up to you, I needed someone to understand me, And you were the first person to try, You didn't care about my crying, You just held me in your arms, You were like my prince charming, I never met anyone like you, Of course people will say you're just like everyone else, Honestly, You are, I mean there are guys out there that are gorgeous, Some guys might be better off to go for, But in all honesty, They don't have one thing that you do, And that's my heart, You won my heart over with your amazing personality, I never met someone like you, And I was so amazed, Through the week I remember thinking, What I could do just to be close to you, I loved spending everyday with you, It's like I wanted the days to last forever, But at the same time, I wanted time to continue because I wanted to experience more out of life, Than life itself, At first hanging out with you was weird, We didn't know where we were with each other, But by the end of everyday we were back in each others arms, The place where I felt most safe, The words you said to me are what every girl wants, You made an impact on me that most people will never get, You've made me realize that there is more to me than what I see in the mirror, Being with you was a roller coaster, You gave me butterflies like a little kid, You made heart beat fast like I was watching a scary movie, And you took my breath away like I forgot how to talk, The last few hours I spent with you are what carries me through, Your words, The promises, All the feelings I had for you when I knew it was almost time, I remember coming out of the gas station and you asked me why I was smiling so big, I had to lie, I told you Bre told me something funny, But that wasn't true, I was smiling because it was the only thing I could do to keep myself from tears, Russ and Bre kept asking If we wanted to go home, And it's like it all started over, The first night when I didn't want to leave, But what was different is this time, You wouldn't be there the next day, I wouldn't see that face that lit up my world so brightly, I wanted it to be a dream, All of it, The guy of my dreams, Gone with a blink of an eye, I wanted to run back to you when I was pulling away, I thought if I did, It would be like every other love movie, Everything works out, The movies get our hopes up, They show that through love, There's no pain, Apparently they haven't experienced what we have, I don't know what it is about us, But there's something there, I hope this feeling lasts, I've been waiting for you to come back since I pulled away that morning, Through every message, Skype call, Or even talk on the phone, I've grown to like you even more, I don't know what it is, But I can't get over you, And I sure don't want to, You've been on my mind since I first saw you, Every thought I've had makes me fall even harder, You're my dream I've had since I was little, My 11:11 wish, My knight in shining armor, You're the one I picture in my mind when people describe perfect, I promise, I'm always going to be here, There is no doubt in my mind, I want to spend my days with your amazing self and my nights in your protective arms, I want you, Its just plain and simple, But confusing and difficult to explain, I want to be your one and only, So give me the chance to prove, I'm the one you need. Through the laughter and tears, You've helped me accomplish my fears, You've pushed me to be greater, Said to forget the daily hater, You're the only one I ever think of, And honestly, you're the one I love.