The Illusion of Love

I needed you and you were there, your stares were empty like you didn’t care. We shared so much in such a short time, I can’t believe that my love for you made me so blind. I reached out to you but you only pulled away, I thought as long as we were together everything would be ok but you took everything from me including my dignity. I was stupid to think that you cared at all for me, you took up so much of my time that you spent the entire time trying to lose me. Love has never been kind to me, It’s always been an illusion because I spent the entire time in a state of confusion. You said you needed me, you said I was your friend but it turned out that you use that as an excuse to put your hands on me. You strike me down so I would obey your every command, abuse my body in ways that I could never understand. It’s amazing how you can make me feel so small or how you can take it all from me in a matter of seconds, you would think that I’ve learned my lesson. Well class is in session but I haven’t been paying attention, you beat me down and I go crawling back. What is it about you that gets me crawling back, my heart says it’s love but my brain knows better. It wasn’t like this when we got together, I thought we were forever and no one could break us. I thought we were unstoppable and no one could take us but you were the one tearing us apart, you shattered my entire existence and you don’t even care. Whenever I needed you, you were never there but you expected me to be there for you and not to say anything about the things that you would do. Yet you expected me to always be at your side, you expected me to be happy with all the scars you wanted me to hide. You never asked about the way I felt inside, you were supposed to be there for me but you were M.I.A. what do you expect me to say? You stopped me every time I tried to walk away and you would beg me to stay.

You broke my heart so many times that it’s non- existent, how can I walk out of your life when you were never in it. Abuse isn't loved, you can’t just put your hands on me and do whatever you want to me. You don’t own me and you never will, I was blind for so long and now my eyes are wide open. I walked into this relationship with my heart wide open, I was hoping for something that you can never give. Most days I was hoping that you would let me live, all I did in this relationship was give, give! Give. I’m walking away with my heart in pieces but I’m hoping that someone can fix this.

you and I are done, Royalty has spoken, my soulmate has come into my life and I have been awoken. The Illusion of love has been broken, the curse you cast no longer affects me and I won’t let your lies wreck me.

I am free, My life is better now because you’re no longer in it. There is no going back now because we’re finished.