Im dying

ONE NIGHT A MASKED FIGURE CAME UP TO ME AND SAID IF I SOLD MYSELF TO HIM I COULD HAVE ANY DESIRE HE THEN REMOVED HIS MASK TO REVEAL A DISFIGURED FACE THEN WHISPERED IN MY EAR “YOU’LL BE LOVED BY THE ONES THAT HATE YOU THE MOST” WAS THINKING I'M A WINNER BUT I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO SO I SAID YES THAT'S WHEN IT ALL WENT BAD I WOULD GET SO MAD AND SAD I WOULD START POPPIN BOTTLES COULD SEE I’M TURNING INTO MY DAD WHATEVER HAPPENED TO GETTING MY DESIRE’S WELL ILL TELL YOU THE FIGURE WAS THE DEVIL AND HE TURNED ME EVIL SO ALL THE LOVE I STRIVED FOR VANISHED HE BANISHED THE HUMAN INTO THE BACK OF MY HEAD LOCKED AWAY HE TOOK ALL CONTROL HE DAMAGED MY SOUL LEFT ME TARNISHED AND DEMOLISHED ALL I WANTED WAS THE LOVE I CRAVE I PRAYED TO THE ONE UP ABOVE THAT HE WOULD MAKE MY TRUE LOVE COME TO ME BUT IT NEVER HAPPENED AM I SELFISH FOR WANTING A STRONG BOND I’VE GROWN TO BE VERY FOND OF YOU ALL I WANTED WAS A CONNECTION STRONGER THAN ANY PHONE SIGNAL I DON'T EVEN THINK I’M GONNA LIVE TO SEE THE NEXT ELECTION THAT'S HOW BAD YOU HURT ME MAKING ME FEEL UNWANTED I JUST WANTED TO BE YOUR PERFECTION THE FIGURE MADE ME SEE THE MAN IN THE MIRROR THIS TIME I SEE THE BIGGER PICTURE I’M NOT THE AVERAGE SINNER I’M TURNING INTO THE VERY THING I DESPISE ALL MY LIFE BEEN WEARING A DISGUISE CAUSE THE REAL ME IS TERRIBLE MY HEART HAS GROWN COLDER IT MAKES ME SHIVER BUT NOW I GOT MY FINGER ON THE TRIGGER WHY SHOULD I RECONSIDER THEY NEVER REALLY CARED THEY ARE ALL SHEEP HELL I’M EVEN A SHEEP I JUST WEAR WOLF'S CLOTHING SO THEY DON'T SEE THE WEAKNESS THEY NEVER ANSWERED THE PHONE OR TEXT SO I GUESS THIS IS WHAT’S NEXT MAYBE I SHOULD STAY AND CONTINUE MY MISSION BUT BEING FAMOUS STILL NOT GETTING MY OBSESSION IS LONELY WHY OBSESS OVER THE ONES WHO DON'T CARE ABOUT ME THEY TRY TO PUT THE BLAME ON ME SAYING THAT I RUINED IT BUT NO YOU'RE THE ONE WHO DROVE ME OUT MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I'M A CAST OUT YOU NEVER SHARED YOUR TIME WITH ME ALL I WAS TRYING TO DO WAS BE YOURS FOR A LIFETIME I WAS TRYING TO GIVE YOU MY HEART AND ALL FOR A LONG TIME I USED TO THINK I WAS A NICE GUY BUT THEY TURNED ME INTO THIS HATED BEING MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I’M NOT EVEN HUMAN.

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