i'm fine

no i’m not fine

of course i’m not fine

i knew this was inevitable

that this was imminent

as all truly sensational episodes are

like the collision of galaxies

a burst of light and sound and color 

yet

just as quickly as it has begun

it must end

the finality is quite certainly the most reassuring part

like how a tot relishes in the silky smoothness of their blanket 

i know that the end is upon us 

i find security in that

and 

as you start the next chapter

and i’m like that dog-eared, torn-up page that reminds you of 

that golden flash of yesterday to be cherished but slowly and surely forgotten

i’m just that tie that binds

that chain that holds you back when you want to soar

but

i’m also the one who sees the places you can go

i see who you will be 

and how to get there

and the answer is not me

it’s never been me

so i will be strong

not in the way i hold you back

as i have before

but in the nudge out of the nest 

and into the great wide world

that i will give you

i hope you find your way 

as clear as day 

and as easy as the breeze on a midsummer’s morning

as for me

i’ll find my way