I'm fine, but not okay

Hey, I just wanted to tell you that I'm not okay. There's a lot of things happening and I don't know what to do. 

Do you remember what I said in our last conversation? I lied, I'm not okay. Do you know when you can't feel 

anything anymore? You don't know what is happiness, you don't know what is sadness. You just walk, eat, dress...

but you don't feel anything. It's just your body without a soul. You get lost in your thoughts. You try to find a 

logical explanation of why you're like this. Your life becomes meaningless, you don't see joy in things, not even 

in the things you love, and that makes you wounder to yourself if you really love that thing. All you want is to 

forget the world, run away, where questions are not asked. I don't want you to worry about me. I don't want anyone

to worry about me. I'm fine, but not okay.