I'm Here To Stay

It's been a while since I put words on this page Seems my life is like a perfect stage Well that's what they say Cause I haven't been writing in decades But that doesn't mean I'm not real on what I say It's not your job to watch every step I make It's not your job to tell me when to leave and when to stay I'm sure as hell gonna stay Until my clay withers away But I still have a long way I'm only 19 but the thought of death still clogs my brains Hard for me to write a single page When you hear voices in your head saying "Your dying to day" I can even hear it when writing this page I know what some might say That I need help and I need to get a professional way No way Why would spend money for personal strength When I can do something that's free and easy And self-sustains me I know some might think I'm crazy They might see me on the streets and move from me hastily Even my sister moves from me greatly Thinking I might snap on her and kill her Everything is insanely Going downhill For those who think of me this way I just want to say That submission is not an option I'm not gonna let these voices telling me that "killing is an option" I'm not gonna let these voices say that "death is okay" And get lost in it cause self-control is something great So great that no one can take Cause I use it to break through these voices That pushes me out of space So all I can see is darkness Never again I will not fall for them Some of you might think I'm exaggerating Oh really? If your hearing voices what path would take What steps would you make What weapon would you create To take them and break them and bring them to places Where they won't create Blackholes It's an art for them you see Cause when they create it's hard to see This is getting too long But before I leave I hope you understand that I never lost my place I hope this message conveys this That I'm here to stay For all of you who read this Thank you so much for your stay Be Safe