I'm Losing My Mind

Because I'm lost in time. I don't know what to do , Because I'm not lost without you. I can't decide if this is real , Or just beyond what me heart wants me to feel. I'm done begging and asking for you, I don't need this or maybe I do. It's been a year probably two, And this whole time I've been next to you. Yeah I guess it was me who was holding on, but i can't decide if its me or you who is mentally gone. i must stop you right there, i still have love for you even if its something i can't bear