I'm Losing My Mind

I don't know how I got to be like this I wonder how I was so unlucky I just remember not wanting to let go Not wanting to forget her I remember she was all I thought about She was everywhere She was everything Every single image I saw she was there Mocking me Every memory she was there Reminding me Every breath she was there Stealing it from me I don't know how I got this way I remember thinking "I'm getting lost I am losing my mind Over a girl That doesn't even waste Any of her time To even think of me To even speak to me To even notice me" I don't know how I got this way I'm losing my mind Trying to understand why this is happening To me Why everything hurts Why I want to be living my life at its fullest But at the same time I just want to end it End everything I had done End everything I wanted to do I wonder how dying became all I thought about How dying became my only thought of release After my heart got shattered I was never the same If they weren't her I would hate when they would touch me I would hate when they would speak to me I would hate when they would acknowledge that I even existed I guess I only wanted her To hold me To speak to me To acknowledge me I guess I was being someone different Someone who was not me I guess I only thought of her I guess I guess I was losing my mind Over a girl Who wouldn't ever waste her time To even think of me To even speak to me To even notice me To even notice That my mind was going hazy My thoughts were getting crazy Thinking about her Thinking "Wow I'm losing my mind Over all this time There has only been one thing in my thoughts And my heart aches Because I realize She's never even wasted her time to even speak to me To even look at me To even think of me When I Have lost my mind With these recurring thoughts About her About how a person so gentle and kind could hurt and break you How a person can make themselves everything you longed for How a person would not care about you even if they know you are devoted to them How a person can make to believe that they are in love with you" I don't know how I got this way I wonder how I got so unlucky I'm I'm losing my mind Over a girl Who doesn't waste any of her time To even speak to me To even notice me To even think That I'm losing my mind With these Persistent Thoughts About her