im not good at goodbyes

im not good at goodbyes as these tears become lost within the cheeks of my face,

i wanna look you in your eyes and tell you all the words i was never able to say,

i try not to look at memoires before i start to cry,

i told you i wouldnt but im not good at goodbyes,

i remember when when we first met i still have that poem that you  wrote me,

but i want you to smile i dont want you to leave me lonley,

theres allot of things i know you can smile about,

just like you can smile with me i want you to be able to smile without,

i dont want to look at a picture of us just to have as a memory,

in my mind your there but its not the same like when your next to me,

its gonna be hard to walk because this gravity is pushing me down,

im trying not to think about when the day comes because i just want to live up to right now,

tho its hard becuase i cant pretend that i dont care,

ill sit at the park where we once were when ever your not there,

ill pretend that your with me while in reality im by myself,

knowing im right here and your somewhere else,

well im not good at goodbyes and i dont think i ever will be,

i promise you ill try to smile even when it hurts me.