I'm Not Ok

I don't know where to begin, or rather if i even i should.

My emotions always shrouded, i wouldn't if i could.

This mass of pure emotion that twists inside of me, It hurts.

I can't descirbe, i want to hide, not sound enough for words.

I am not ok...

Depression is a monster i've been battling for years,

He hides behind the smiles as i'm fighting back the tears.

I scream that i am fine, but he tells me i am not,

the energy to smile, yeah, it takes away alot.

And when i fall i fall too hard, the ground is now my friend,

I'm fearing that this monster is with me to the end.

I am not ok...